Tuhan....


aku bener2 butuh bantuan mu kali ini. berikan saya kekuatan yg cukup, agar tidak takut.

kenapa harus begini..?

kenapa bisa tiba2 menjadi takut seperti ini??


pusing, takut, sakit.

aku ga tau harus bagaimana.

tolonglah Tuhan, lindungi aku dari perasaan2 yg tidak baik ini.

hushhh. jauhkan semuanya dariku ya Tuhan.

aku mohon..

Remember when you told me you'll never let me go?


Please don't (:







i love you.

lucid.

Dear God,


All I want to do during the first few minutes of christmas is just to spend a short moment talking to him, sweetly.


Help me overcome this weakness of mine O Lord.

Too much emotion, too much pain.


Tell me why we're still holding on..




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Last night I had a dream.


I dreamt of you asking me to a dance
I was wearing a little black dress
and a superduper high and painful heels
I had difficulty dancing, it was pain
But we dance anyway.











My love,
it's painful.
But we carry on anyway.

maybe that day i should've just went on and be friends with you.

how do you want to have a girlfriend when you don't even bother taking that little responsibility about her , giving that little attention to her.

it's not all rainbows,sunshines and diamond.

do you even want it anymore?

but i miss you, i really do.

like you care, although i really wish you do.

maybe

How do you utter something your mind can't even comprehend?

















No, please stop reading into my life.











I don't think you're making the effort anymore,











whilst it was so effortless in the past.











Maybe distance does change things.

ummm....

it's always, like that.

you open up about something, and you expect him to understand you or at least comfort you about it.

and when you don't get what you're expecting, you just go back into that mode. the i'd-rather-keep-quiet-about-it mode.

haha.

I guess, that's why I've been keeping quiet about it.

Not only because I don't want to make him worry,
but rather, he'll probably not say things that will give me the assurance I need, like always.

my desire

secretly, I have a desire.

however, the desire is a secret desire that must remain unknown.

desire, oh desire

will I ever have a change to reveal it one day?